Feeling Blah

Feeling Blah

The last two days I have been feeling blah.  I swear I hope this feeling doesn't continue.  I have been waking up and doing the same routine so you would think that I would be ok but NO just feeling so BLAH.  Like yestrday it was a long ass day because my husband had to work overtime so he wasnt home until 7:00pm.  So, it's like what do I do with my day besides play games online all damn day, cook, clean etc.  It gets a little tiresome.  But, its not like I have any else better to do :S

Today, has been another bad day because since my mother in law is in two I took advantage and went to the DMV.  But the damn DMV wont give me my permit because I need medical clearance, and my doctor told me he wont give me medical clearance until I go to therapy and I can't go to therapy without my DAMN permit.  So, now I have no idea what to do.  I am just so frustrated :S

I kind of like my neices idea of writing down my feelings it is kind of helping :) I cant believe my birthday is this month.  I just feel so damn blah.  Not another year already :S  I just look at it like I am getting older and no kids to speak of :S I want this year to just hurry up and be over with even though 13 is my lucky number :S

Another thing is this.  I know facebook exist and I like to post stuff about my day and how I am feeling but not for anyone to take it personnally.  Trust I will never hurt myself so dont worry so much about me and call and text me and shed tears and post crap talking about yourself.  It isn't about you, I just like to post things because it helps me :)  So, it isn't about you. 

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Blog update

I know this is crazy but this is my update :) I decided to use this instead of writing in a journal everyday like my niece had suggested.  So, I figured might as well use this and update it every once in a while.  So, where do I begin.  We'll everything has been going OK with me.  Biggest draw backs are not being able to drive and my memory.  So I am working on booth.  Cause not being mobile is CRAZY.  Like really I have to walk every where I need to go and I have to take care of some business. And, I write EVERYTHING down, so I don't forget.  Thank god the OMNI approved me so I can get to volunteering.  Because god knows I am a busy body.  So, the volunteering position is not working out for me right now so, if any knows of any thing else then please let me know.  A girl can only clean and cook so much.  And you would think that even though I have been down and out for so long you would think NO but I think I did a good job this last like year or so :)
That is because cooking is not my specialty.  That is because a grew up in a house were a man cooks all the time.  So, I love that B loves to cook.  But, I think I have picked up my game a little.  And, love this blog I follow know.  It makes cooking easy for me and every meal has been a winner with the hubby.  The blog is called "Pearls, Handcuffs, and Happy Hour".  So, if you are interested check it out.
And, time has been flying bye.  Before we know it there will be a new addition to our family.  And, the little Prince over there that Sean and Gaby have is a month old already.  I'm a little sad because I haven't meet him yet :( BOO!!!  Just too much going on.  We're has the time gone? Before we know it, it will be my birthday, Halloween, the hubby's birthday/holiday, one of my nieces birthdays, Thanksgiving, my other nieces birthday my brothers birthday and Christmas.  Come to think of it there is a lot going on these last few months.  Not fair because I have no JOB.  But thankfully my SSDI kicked in finally :S so, my income is kind of like if I was working but a lot less :(
But, I swear time is flying bye which in my case is kind of a good thing.  I can't wait to meet a few new babies next year.  But, especially my brothers baby.  That kid is going to be so spoiled :S it's crazy.   So, I have my brother due sometime in April and my friend Vane due in February.  So, so far that's 2 so I wonder who lucky number 3 is going to be :) because they do say everything comes in 3's :)